This morning, my husband reminded me that twenty seven years ago today, we (me, him, and many co-workers from were we worked then) went out for a coworker’s birthday at a bar called Maxie’s. That is where and when we ended up getting together, lol. He was freshly divorced and I was over being timid and shy, over my unrequited love. Ready to party!
I wasn’t looking for another love so soon but I was ready to get out there and start dating. Single and ready to mingle, lol. I had kept myself away from people because of my depression and lack of confidence, especially when dealing with men. Well, I was perhaps a little too picky too, looking for a unicorn: the perfect man, and one to just show up on my doorstep. By 1999, I was over those perfect ideals, realizing that I’d be waiting forever if I didn’t get over myself and get out there. I was definitely, finally, ready for what life would bring me, and life brought me my husband. ❤️ It happened so quick. I was just interested in hanging out but we had such a good time together and he made me feel so safe and loved and special, how could I resist? By June we were a couple, and by September of ’99 I had basically moved in with him.
Describe one positive change you have made in your life.
One positive change i’ve made in my life, recently, or have been forced to make is I started the drug Zepbound. I’ve been on it for 5 weeks now and I’ve lost twenty pounds. The Zepbound has made me change my eating habits. So I am not overeating, I’m not even craving all the junk or carbs I used to crave as much. My drive to eat is definitely tamped down. It’s two positive changes rolled into one.
I was excited to find out today that I lost the 20 pounds, and it wasn’t that difficult. I mean, I haven’t been eating like I used to but I still eat. We had to go to a conference in Tracerse City for my husband’s work recently. Everything was paid for, including our dinners, and they have some great restaurants up there. I did eat large dinners while at the conference, packing my leftovers up for breakfast the next morning. I still lost weight! I didn’t eat too much during the day and save my calories for dinner. No desserts! As tempting as it was, though I did have one alcoholic drink each evening because my husband’s coworkers like to drink, and they have some awesome bars in Traverse City.
Another positive change I have made in my life.Recently, is I have been going to physical therapy. I started last fall with my legs because I noticed they were getting weak. I need both knees replaced, but I cannot do that until I lose weight, so I decided I better make my legs stronger to compensate. I have been going to physical therapy ever since. I started with the legs and worked on those for a few months, and now I’m working on my lower back and core. I’ve seen too many people deteriorate quickly, and I do not wanna go down that road. Actually I was on that road, and I wanted to turn it around and get off.
Today, between the weight loss and the physical therapy, I have realized I am on the right path. I had to take somebody to an appointment for work, to a place i’ve gone before and have had trouble walking into to get my client checked in for their appointment. This place is down a long hallway, and then down another long hallway, in a back corner of a facility. I was so weak and overweight that I was having trouble walking that and I would get out of breath and have to rest. Today I was able to walk it without having to rest, and I was able to walk it quickly, like, I used to be able to walk. It seemed like a miracle. I’m back! Well, at least this morning. It’s definitely a positive change.And I am feeling it!
Another year over, another year beginning. Wow. I am 54 years old. Hard to believe all that time has passed by. I have nothing earth-shattering to share, nothing enlightening to write about. Just wanted to mark the day. Why is it when I am driving along all day, taking my participants to their appointments, I can think so many great things to write about but now I got nothing. Maybe I feel put on the spot now which is weird. I kind of feel a push to make resolutions but I hate to do that because I don’t often keep them, or if I do, I move on them at a snails pace. It’s so weird, how can I be both happy with my life and dissatisfied? I’d be restless if I had the energy to be so.
I have so much to be thankful for and I have written about these things/people: my husband, my family, my relationship with my stepson and daughter-in-law, being a grandmother, my baby doll, my kitty, my friends, my home, my job. I am thankful for all of that. I suppose I am dissatisfied with myself; my health, my lack of energy and motivation. I have been working on it but it goes so slow…and it it so difficult. Working on your health and body is not easy, nor very fun. Not usually anyway. I have found some joy in physical therapy. I started physical therapy to make my legs stronger in order to help my knees and my whole physicality. I am getting stronger. I am even starting to feel a smidge better, an slight bit more energized. Another thing to be thankful. When I really drill down into my feelings of dissatisfaction it seems to be about the pace of improvement and the fact that it is so easy for me to lose sight of my goals, to lose focus. There is always so much going on, so much that seems to demand my attention and so little time and energy for me to do the things I need and want to do. These are the things I think about on my birthday. It’s never a joyful celebration for me, ha ha. Maybe next year.
***AI cracks me up. I like to generate images for my posts because it’s interesting but they kept giving my old ladies!!!
My cat loves outside but I won’t let her go out by herself. I walk with her. I rarely WANT to do that, especially after work, and especially when I have tons of chores INSIDE just piling up. But I want my kitty to be happy so I am outside with her this evening. She mostly moseys around the house, sitting in one place or another for long stretches of time. I mostly sit because my knees.
My husband and I started axe-throwing last year. He got involved because people from his work started a league. It’s fun. We go every other Friday, so it’s not too hard on our social schedule. 🤣
We started back with the league the Friday before last. Of course, I was dragging ass because I’d worked all day and I’ve been in an antisocial mood lately. I always feel better once I get there though, and it’s not a very demanding sport. We play with some really great people. Like I said, fun. They perk me up and make me feel good. Now we have my stepson and daughter-in-law playing with us too. I’m so happy to spend more time with my kids 🩷🩷🩷
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